Monday, May 14, 2007

The end is in sight...

The first year is almost over: I'm only going to be in the classroom with the kids for 4 1/2 more days (tomorrow, Wednesday morning, and the first 3 days of next week). Much of that will be cleaning up and taking care of business. We leave early Thursday morning for Austin and San Antonio and get back Saturday night--should be a fun trip and my kids are really looking forward to it (the ones that are going; thanks to my mentor, we were able to get some more funding, and 8 of my kids are going).

I'm just worn out. I get a few days off before I start teaching summer school. I agreed to teach summer school for a couple reasons: I should get to teach the kids who will be in my class next year and jump-start them with writing and English in general; I could use the money; and I'll be in Houston anyway, since I have to take classes for certification until the end of July. I think I get a four-day weekend before a one-day training and then starting summer school on Thursday 5/31, but I'm not positive on the dates. At any rate, it's only a month... and hopefully I will be in my room so I can start prepping it for next year early.

Has it been successful? Kind of. I can really feel that I have a good relationship with most of the students, which is positive. It was tough at the beginning of the year to get them to do anything, mainly because I didn't know how to tell them to; now it's a lot easier. I have a lot of changes in organizational and parental involvement plans for next year that I'm excited about, but at the same time, there will be more pressure. But at least I'll be able to hit the ground running in September, and I have a couple months to work out details...

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Scores are in.

11/22 pass writing (February)--this required passing both the grammar and the composition
13/22 pass reading (April)
19/22 pass math (April)

A little disappointing to me personally, but not horrible. Some kids cried, some kids jumped up and down. High-stakes testing does bad things to kids.

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

My student wins a scholarship!

One of my students went to a sketching competition sponsored by the Museum of Fine Arts a couple of weekends ago. The art teacher at our school (we currently have art as an ancillary) found out about the competition and recommended that he go. I called up the parent a few days beforehand and reinforced it (good thing, too--she said they weren't planning to take him because they didn't think he was eligible. That is my small role if he becomes successful).

He is a good kid, but very easily distracted and disorganized. He's such an artistic learner that he doesn't do well at all with visual or logical learning, and is very inconsistent with his reading (his Stanford scores were the lowest in the class, I think because of this and because of getting distracted).

Anyway, he gets a free art class with the MFA's art school, I think this fall. Awesome!

Monday, April 30, 2007

Grading systems

What is the point of a grade? What is it meant to show? We've been discussing this issue in the "university class" I'm required to take, though I must admit that this debate has been valuable and really added to my perspective.

In particular, what does "80" mean?

Does it mean that the student got 80% on tests?
Does it mean that, through some preassigned weighting, the grade came out to an 80?
Does it mean that the student knows nothing, but tries really hard and so gets an 80?
Does it mean that the student knows everything, but didn't do homework?

The problem is, in my opinion, especially acute for an elementary school student. How do you issue them a numeric grade? When I was in school, our system was E/S/N (Excellent, Satisfactory, Needs Improvement), separated by subject and by effort/achievement. I am required to give one numeric grade per subject. There's no distinction between "tried really hard but not quite there" and "knows it all and put in no effort," they both may come out to a 72.

Now, there's the question of whether grades are necessary at all, and for what. I'm a definite believer that college grades are a good thing, as long as they correspond to a predefined set of standards. I tend to believe that high school grades are a necessary evil as a way of providing some distinction between those who performed well and those who did not, although they of course must be taken with a heavy spoonful of salt. But elementary school? What does that tell anyone? (Of course, what does a standardized test tell anyone either?...)

I've given a lot of failing grades this year, and I've underemphasized effort, not because I've wanted to, but because I've had no direction on how to give grades and it just ended up being easier to give grades based on how students did on their assignments. (This wasn't any sort of planned idea; that's just how it turned out.)

As a result, I've been trying to rework the way I grade students. The formula that I've derived so far (for next year) is weighted, as follows:
  • 50% Objectives
    • Simply put, does the kid understand? Demonstrated more than once, in more than one way. 1 for yes, 0 for no; average it out.
    • The main difficulty here is breaking down the objectives into what I am actually going to use for a grade, and in providing the opportunity for remediation and makeup (I've had a huge problem with that this year).
    • There is the possibility of differenting the objectives for different students, thereby making the system more fair.
  • 25% Effort
    • Do I see the kid participating in class?
    • Does he/she do his homework?
  • 25% Raw Achievement
    • How does the kid do on daily work, tests and quizzes?
The other caveat is that this year, I haven't issued a grade lower than a 50 on any assignment. I am giving thought to issuing grades all the way from 0 up next year; the only requirement is that students can't receive lower than a 50 for the grading period as a whole.

I try not to use grades as a stick to beat kids over the head with (it loses its potency anyway if you do it too frequently, plus I have some that just don't care regardless). That tends to be a downer and release negative energy. But I am required to put some sort of number on a report card, and it should accurately as possible reflect ... something.

Testing results

Word is that the kids tried their best.

Hopefully that will be enough for 2/3 of them to pass.

The last two weeks heading up to the testing were crazy, as I tried to reinforce strategies, they pulled out most of my kids for math, and I tried to get whatever knowledge I could into the heads of those who were left.

The Texas Assessment of Knowledge and Skills is administered by another teacher--in our school, by the 5th grade teacher. Therefore, during the two days my students took reading and math (April 17-18), I was teaching fifth grade... don't try it. It could be hazardous to your health. I'm just glad I didn't get assigned middle school and I admire those who are handling it (I guess I could handle it if I were put there originally, but I'm well used to fourth graders by now). The testing day for fifth grade, April 19, was actually worse, though, as I had a lot of kids act up after they were done testing and I'd have to send them outside. I think I had four kids alone outside by the end with more waiting.

We got Stanford results back during the same timeframe. I had 1/2 of my kids not pass either reading or math, with 9 (out of 22) not passing reading and I think 3 or 4 not passing math. The total was 11 not passing (one or the other), 11 passing, with a couple of kids overlapping reading and math. However, they had basically no prep for Stanford, which came right after TAKS Writing, so hopefully that is not a good reflection of what their scores coming back will look like.

Monday, April 09, 2007

Almost there!

Well... students took their final benchmarks last week.

My math class has been split into three. That's fine for me, since I get the "high" third, the ones who are doing OK by grade level standards. They're the easy ones to teach. The rest of them go to our pull-out teachers, who normally do reading, but who are doing their best to try to get them caught up. Meanwhile, I've met with my TFA program director to figure out a plan to get kids up to speed as fast as possible. I taught the plan (it includes an acronym for their test strategies).

Issue: they still have comprehension problems. Even if they're reading it out loud in a group, they miss some big things. Result: their reading scores were about the same on the new benchmark, though math climbed a bit. That would mean about half pass, half don't. I'm under no illusions that all of them are going to pass, though I am still hoping maybe 2/3 will pull it out in both math and reading. I'm feeling a little better about next year, though, because I really think I do know how to improve a lot.

We had Friday off and today was professional development. We met in "vertical teams," i.e. the PK-5th teacher in the same sequence. The third-grade teacher before me, who reportedly doesn't teach much English, finally admitted as much (since I don't know it anyway). I don't understand how that works, since she has all the time after the reading test in March to focus just on English. Sigh. Anyway, my vertical team is a joke, since the goal seems to be to leave as quickly as possible and not to actually cooperate in any meaningful way. They always tell me "we are here if you need us" but they're definitely not committed to collaboration as a concept. So far I don't feel like I can change that, much as I might want to.

Last bit of good news: I'm getting a smartboard! (although we call them "teamboards"). I'm excited to see what I'll be able to do with it!

Monday, March 26, 2007

Pressure cooker

Well, it's been a rough month. To say the least. Prior to the break, the kids took benchmarks (the 2006 TAKS release tests). Their math performance was, uh, pretty bad. And the real test looms April 18-19. So for the next few weeks, 2/3 of my class is being pulled out for math. I'm under tons of pressure. And I haven't been especially eager to post.

It was good to get out for spring break, that's all I can say. Sorry for the lack of detail, and hopefully I will provide more soon, but yes, I'm alive. I've been posting therapeutically about world affairs, which is a welcome distraction, but I've had my hands full enough with the teaching that I haven't wanted to comment too much about it here... I hope everyone understands...

Saturday, March 03, 2007

The month of February is gone! Good.

Well, it's been a crazy month. :)

We had writing TAKS on February 20, so everything until then was trying to make sure the kids were ready for it. Then there was Stanford all of this last week. The kids are tired and I'm tired of tests; it's ridiculous. We've given, as a grade level, four full-day writing benchmarks plus one each of reading and math, and that's just getting started, because we have two more each of reading and math coming up--that'll make 10 days of the year just giving full-day tests, plus the Stanford tests, plus whatever they do in class.

I had an assignment for my UST class--I had to interview a student. First question: "What do you do in school?" Answer: "We take big tests." Ridiculous. They're 10. Stanford is cruel. It's ridiculously long--it has something like 14 different sections. Horrible. It took until lunch Tuesday through Friday this week.

Otherwise, things are getting better as far as "teaching" goes. Unfortunately, I can't really teach enough since I have to be measuring the kids all the time. May as well just have daily standardized tests to assess what they learned in the hour they had left over the previous day. In meeting with my TFA director for Round 2 we decided that I had to emphasize teaching a clear sequence of steps to my kids. I tried it in math and it seemed to work--they got a 78 on the write-out-the-answer lines and angles test, as opposed to an average 79 on the multiple-choice decimals test. Then the next day, we explored the relationship between their "effort" on the in class assignments and their "achievement" on the test, which not surprisingly were correlated.

So for Round 3 we have decided that, frankly, I still have zero idea what I'm doing as far as reading is concerned. Their comprehension isn't getting that much better (most of them, anyway), according to the STAR measurement, which is basically a fill-in-the-blanks test with increasing difficulty of passages. Grrr. Apparently this is because I (1) am not knowing what to teach kids because (2) I can't assess them correctly because (3) I don't know how and therefore (4) I can't teach them effectively. So the goal is to fix that.

Things are looking OK for the field trip to San Antonio, except that I don't have too many kids going (only seven or eight total). That's too bad, but at least we were able to cancel the second bus which will mean we have a little bit of a cushion and I may even be able to carry over a couple hundred dollars to next year--when I will demand a commitment from parents at a BOY meeting, and try to have a trip that's shorter than three days (two days better!). Spring carnival is coming up and I have zero idea what the class is doing, though. I should figure that out!!

The class is, I'm sure, looking forward to our Wednesday and Thursday benchmarks. As am I. Sigh. Oh well, spring break is in a week!

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Eight months gone by

It was at the beginning of June 2006 that I packed up and embarked upon this rather audacious adventure. While I’d gone to Europe myself in 2004, at 19, and started college at 17 in 2002, this was moving… permanently… to a new city and state, with absolutely nobody I knew. I took finals early, skipped commencement, and arrived at the Crowne Plaza after three days of driving.

This presented the potential for plenty to go awry, and certainly, there’s a lot that has been unexpected. But I can’t say that there’s been anything that hasn’t gone “according to plan,” because really, there never was a plan. And I don’t think that’s a bad thing.

Coming in, I definitely saw this as a two-year commitment. I’m always willing to say that my options are open, and if you’re close to me, you know that I’ve been quite indecisive on many things over the years. But being here for longer than the two years wasn’t really in my intentions at all; this was time to decide what to study in grad school, learn a lot and help out in the meantime. To some extent, I guess it still is: I’m not going to be a teacher for my entire life (though, of course… I keep my options open). But I’m not any closer to knowing what I want to study as a graduate student. Given the fact that grad school’s a pretty hefty cost, and one that I’ll be shouldering this time, I’m not eager to start a program I’m unsure about.

I’ve always kinda been the “kid who was over his head,” socially if not academically. I’ll be 22 in March with almost a full year of work experience and two B.A. degrees. What that’s meant, though, is that it’s taken me longer to adjust socially, to figure out what the real expectations are, to read between the lines of my role. I’m not sure if that’s just my nature or if it’s due to being behind agewise throughout my life… perhaps both. Anyway, I figure there’s no reason to hurry this time. I want to learn to do something well, and actually do it for a while before getting rushed away for the next step in a breakneck life.

I did the right thing in joining TFA. As I’ve commented before, I do enjoy the teaching, when the kids don’t horribly frustrate me. I think it’s still hard for me to identify with where some of them are coming from… I just really haven’t had the same home life as they have and I still think of “home” as someplace where parents make sure you do your work. I don’t realize what these kids have been exposed to at their age. But I do feel like I’m doing something good. There are lots of bad teachers. I’m not at the bottom, and I think my kids can have success academically this year. What does that mean for their future? I’ve got no idea right now.

So, that adds up to this: yes, I’m seriously considering staying in Houston beyond two years to be a good teacher, to really get involved in the community, and try to turn some kids into good learners. That’s something my current students aren’t.

What has teaching taught me? Communication… I’m definitely still learning that lesson. But I’ve always been pretty timid and shy when I’m not comfortable. Then people get surprised by my forwardness. I tend to avoid confrontation, which makes things worse. I’m getting better at all of this, attacking problems head-on.

I can prioritize somewhat better, and getting better all the time. Still work to be done, to be sure. As for organization, I’ve certainly made strides. I may still seem physically disorganized, but there’s a method to it now, and I’m working towards environmental sustainability of my own physical environment, in the limited time I have when I’m not keeling over from exhaustion, preparing for class, or blogging/reading blogs (my main weakness these days).

So again… teaching has been the right thing for me… it will hopefully, on balance, be a good thing for my students… and I’ve met some amazing people in Houston who I know I will always be in touch with. I’ve made my share of mistakes, but I’m a better person now, a more ready person, a more efficient person, and a more determined person, than I was when I left Seattle. And I’m happy for that.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Of teachers' unions and evaluations

The teachers' union is upset about the new performance pay system, which I believe focuses on (1) school test score improvement and (2) individual teacher test score improvement. Now, I am not sure if I am going to be screwed by this system, because my kids are transitioning and therefore will score lower, especially in reading and writing.

The union is angered enough that it apparently has asked teachers to stay out from after-school activities next week, to "show our value" or something of the sort. Having not been at the union meeting, I can't attest to the precise explanation. I'm going to stay in, as I want to work with my students... I'm there for them, and I don't want them to be hurt by an absence. (How much are "the students," in a broader perspective, hurt by the pay system perhaps lowering morale and unity among teachers? No idea, to be honest. But I'm still grappling with effectiveness and tutorials are one of the more effective places for me to work with them. I don't want to hurt the low ones right now. Perhaps when I am more effective in the classroom I will feel justified to do such things.)

Unfortunately, either way I act it is inevitably a personal statement. I don't honestly know what the right thing to do is right now. I don't know the history of the union's relationship with the district and the background to bargaining; I can't state for myself who's right and who's wrong. I don't even know who on my campus comes down on what side and who I would possibly irritate. Given that, I want to take the route that will be least harmful to the kids (in the immediate "my class" sense) while I get my bearings on the whole thing.

Another question is--can we implement a performance pay system in any other way, given current circumstances? I was pondering this... the only way I see to do evaluations, beyond test scores, is in-person reviews. While I like my principal and school and believe that evaluations would be fair, plenty of stories I hear suggest that this trust and the potential for fair reviews don't exist at many campuses, that is, the lack of good administration, in addition to preventing academic progress from students, also would preempt an efficient teacher incentive system and discourage good teachers. Independent review? Perhaps an idea worth looking into, but will the union go for it? I'm not optimistic.

And on the subject of evaluations: in evaluating my own progress as a teacher, there's lots of progress to be made. I've started reading Understanding by Design by Wiggins and McTighe, and I think it will really change the way I approach curriculum. More updates on that to come as I progress.

Thursday, February 01, 2007

And as for the war...

Over half of Houston students don't graduate from high school, according to a recent Chronicle article. Meanwhile, those that do earn, on average, $9900 more per year.

I asked my class to brainstorm what they would do with $9,900. One response I got:

"If I had $9,900.00 I would build a machine to make more money. With the money I make I would buy alot of tanks and my own ARMY. I would use the tanks to bring BUSH to IRAQ so he could be in ARMY"

I can't find the actual paper right now, so if I do, I will change whatever I got wrong, but that was about the gist of it. It cracked me up all day.

One crazy day

Wednesday, January 31, 2007.

This is on the heels of, Tuesday afternoon, a bunch of students coming and talking to me about how four boys in the class are giving them problems.

(1) Tired, I vaguely manage to stumble out of bed, not really eating breakfast, and I pull in the school gate at 7:57 as it is being locked. I have no idea what I am going to teach.

(2) The principal arrives for my official annual evaluation around 8:30. Remember, I have no idea what I'm actually doing on this day. Not entirely true, I guess... we always do a warmup and go over homework. When we finish that, we go to the ESL reading textbook and just do the next story, which I haven't read at all, and don't have the teacher's guide with me for.

(3) Principal, at length, leaves. I switch classes to my mentor's classroom while he comes in to talk to them about TAKS writing strategies and I have to watch his kids for half an hour.

(4) I return, and take my students to library. Rest!

(5) Taking them out of the library, librarian tells me she was tired of four of them screwing around (as am I), sent them to social worker, social worker has notes for home, they have to go to counseling for behavior problems. Okay.

(6) Social worker comes to my class. Asks what I did to follow up on yesterday. Did I speak to the principal? I say I have scheduled a parent conference for 4:30 but I didn't speak to the principal. Didn't know I was supposed to. She offers to take all of them--the boys and the complainers, so about half the class--to the office. I say okay.

(7) Lunch. Another respite.

(8) After lunch, I lose a bunch of people for various intervals while the office interviews everyone. Eventually, they all get sent back to my class in time for the end of the day. End of day goes surprisingly smoothly and I dismiss.

(9) Students come in after school for tutorials. One of the boys who got in trouble, [z] comes in and mumbles something to me about "[x] and [y] are in the office because they were looking at porno or something." Huh????

(10) About 10 minutes later, boy [x] comes into the room, crying, and puts his head down. I do feel slightly bad, but not horribly so. Boy [y] comes in about 5 minutes later, not quite as emotional. Eventually they join tutorials. I'm pretty sure those are suspension letters, but for what? They read the letters to themselves... yep... "Nivel III...Mirando revista pornográfica". Suspended at home for a day.

(11) [x]'s parents come in for the meeting (that I arranged yesterday). Things have changed quite a bit since then. I just say "ehhh... a lot more has happened today" and start to explain. Principal comes into the hall in the middle and explains. Etc, etc.

(12) At some point, I go home. Principal does inform me that [z] actually told on [x], [y] and the rest. heh.

(13) Today, I teach class and it goes really well! But the suspension was only one day... so here comes tomorrow.

On the bright side also, I got the results of the observation today, and somehow it went really well.

Friday, January 26, 2007

Next year...

Is it bad to already be thinking forward to next year? I think it's a good thing. I am actually full of anticipation. I've already made the list of school supplies for parents and I'm planning out my class goals. The biggest difference: I actually know what I'm doing.

They tell you that "the first week is all procedures." I was like "what? I can't even think of two days' worth of procedures to teach." Now I get it--you might teach something, but you spend forever doing it and make sure the kids do it the right way. You set the disciplinary tone early too, something I couldn't do this year because I didn't have time! All the time was spent trying to plan for the class, which in retrospect was OK, but it would have been better if I had the kids following procedures, no matter how inane, than what I was doing academically (which wasn't very good anyway).

I'm also planning out units. My first three weeks, reading will be all in Spanish to get students accustomed to what we are doing. I don't think I had the Spanish skill to do that this year--but now I do. I know what to do for math and I have a better idea of what they will and won't know already. I know what texts I'm going to use, what they can handle and what they can't.

The disorganization of my kids will get a lot better. I already mentioned the school supplies; I know how they're going to be organized too--three binders, everything goes in a binder. As for my stuff, I'm going to spend the summer (taking classes and) putting it all into my own binders for organizational purposes.

Finally, I want to get parents more involved with occasional parent meetings. I'm hoping to plan a field trip for my class, and possibly others who are interested, to a college/university (Rice would be my first choice).

I guess I should add that this year is going fine! 15 of my 22 kids are on track to pass writing now, according to the benchmark, which is up from 6/21 in October. I think most of them can pass reading and math, too, as long as we get through the material in math. They're doing a better job at reading independently, too. I'm excited about what we can do together for the next couple of months.

Anyway, though, I'm ridiculously busy what with Mon/Tues/Wed tutorials, Sat morning tutorials, Wed night class, the occasional TFA or HISD professional development requirement, planning, and working for field trip fundraiser. Hence the lack of posting here or at the other show recently. I'm going to try to talk some more this weekend. Honest.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

TFA's Lone Star

...is a good thing. Went to San Antonio for the weekend and saw some useful things at workshops, and a couple friends from RGV who I hadn't seen in a long while. As a result I have an Amazon.com order in for Marzano's Learning Strategies, a book called Understanding by Design that hopefully is a great way to organize units, and Stephen Covey's 7 Habits (and I thought I'd never actually read that stuff...).

Also, got to see Jaime Escalante speak (he was the keynote), of the movie Stand and Deliver fame (he started a very successful AP Calculus program at a HS in East LA). He was a very nice man and he found every story amusing, which in itself was amusing and endearing. He did go on a bit long, and he tended to monotone a bit, but it was still awesome to see the guy, and apparently he did this just for TFA, so good on him.

For those of you who are already in the TFA cult, Aurora Lora (!!!) was the opening speaker. She was all right. She's reopening a closing, failing middle school in Portland, Oregon next year into an all-girls charter school. Should be interesting.

Explaining the lack of posting

I was working on a post, I swear.

Things are ramping up here... writing TAKS is in about exactly a month and the kids need to learn grammar, fast!! I am going to start teaching weekday after school tutorials (they had a different teacher before) plus we are starting Saturdays this week (yay!).

Which doesn't explain the fact that there hasn't been much on here and lots on the other site. Regarding that... well, I think it is helping me to stay sane to blog more on political issues. I think enough about my teaching to myself right now and I'm kind of back in that phase where blogging lots about it is just overkill for me given the pressure.

But I will try to keep it updated. Really.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

1/4 over (I wish my students knew what 1/4 is)

The semester is over.

Comparing now to the beginning of the year... well, my job has stayed the same. A lot of people's job titles have changed. Bilingual gives you stability, because they don't have anyone to take your spot. It probably also means that some bad teachers get more security.

I still need to do better at making sure the kids have the vocab they need to succeed. I need to do better at a lot of things. Their average performance on certain things is still very low--I know there need to be way more efficient ways. I know you can always improve, but I want to improve a lot, now.

Today I saw at least one kid reading the book I gave him for Christmas. Good. I got a lot of mugs--certainly something I can use. I think the only thing most of them could think about me is "he drinks a ridiculous amount of coffee."

I go in tomorrow to clean up, do permanent folders, and take care of a couple other tasks, and then we don't start again until January 3. Now, to do some Christmas shopping...

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Quick jolly comments

I hate holidays.

Anyway, tomorrow evening I have a final exam, which will be preceded by the merriment of the class holiday party. I got everyone from the class books--which hopefully are matched up well to their interests. Some are lightly used, some new. I hope they'll actually read them...

Today we had the school holiday assembly. Or, I should say, Christmas assembly. There aren't any other holidays. In fact, the kids sang some Jesus song (I don't know what it's called because I don't know what any of them are called) and there was actually a Joseph and Mary on stage, with a little plastic Jesus.

Ah, Texas.

Sunday, December 10, 2006

Holiday season

HISD is almost ready to dismiss... we have 3 1/2 more useless days. Many of the teachers say that there are too many distractions at school. I think they are right. I would like to be able to focus with my kids, but...

Last week we started giving the "benchmarks," that is, practice standardized tests (TAKS). However, they weren't real TAKS release tests (you can find those online, by the way, if you want to know what my kids are going to take). They were TAKSMaster, that is, by a private company, and they were way harder than the TAKS. It is useless for me to know that my class can't read them, because I already knew that. They scored 39 percent on reading and 50 percent on math (that math score actually makes me rather optimistic, because there wasn't a lot of variation, and once we get through measurement, fractions, and decimals, I think they will be closer to 70-80 percent on a test that was harder than TAKS). Still... had it been real TAKS it might have been worth my time. Giving these harder tests depresses them, depresses me, and wastes my week.

So tomorrow, we are doing it again, this time for writing. Their writing is gradually improving... they generally have good ideas, but struggle with execution and providing details. I am optimistic that, in the end, they will be OK with compositions. What worries me is the grammar. Their grammar is horrible and not really getting better. We are going to focus intensely starting in January, so hopefully they will get there, but...

Tuesday the After School Program is presenting their holiday songs, and Tuesday is a short day anyway because I have my horizontal team meetings, so not much I can do. Wednesday we have our holiday party, Thursday is early dismissal and ends the week. So basically they didn't learn all that much last week and won't this week either. They need so much work that it really worries me that this time is being wasted.

I'm sure I've got plenty of other thoughts right now, but I'll wait until I've had time to put them together in some sort of comprehensible order. Happy holidays!

Oh, and just for everyone... a shot of my classroom:


Saturday, November 18, 2006

Enjoying the experience?

I don't want to say yet that I fully enjoy being a teacher. I'm not very good at a lot of aspects yet, especially organization and record keeping, I'm inefficient, I'm not always the best at, really, any part of the job. But I am interested in the job. I don't mind the planning that goes into it (as always, my planning outpaces my execution). And it's something I could actually see myself doing.

Last weekend we went to the Renaissance Festival ("we" being myself and seven of the kids). Had a great time--they even had steak on a stick, something I've been casting about for for a while. This week we didn't have all the time we needed, but I managed to teach a few things. They're struggling a little bit with 2x2 multiplication but I think that they're mostly getting it. I'm finally getting a little more coordinated with the teacher who works with my students in tutorials.

At a TFA development event last week I met another 4th grade bilingual teacher. She said she is the only one in her ('05) corps who teaches 4th grade transitional (i.e. her kids are transitioning to English). In my corps there is myself and one other teacher I believe (my induction roommate). Possibly one or two more. It is a very difficult position... and we'll see what my results are like. That will probably determine whether I am back, and how much, exactly, I enjoy teaching...

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Status check... and only two weeks 'til a break

Well...

First of all, if you only read this blog, I sometimes post over on my other blog--but that's an explicitly nonteaching, all-my-other-thoughts place (if they don't get on Facebook notes, that is).

Second, in the spare time I have to blog, I often don't like to talk overly much about my teaching problems--I want to escape!

That is my explanation for why my blogging is so sporadic. As I've said before, I'm not too good at this whole thing, but sometimes I like to try and pretend that I can do it. :)

What's going on right now? Well... crazy stuff. My disorganization has caught up with me and I'm in the process of trying to make everything straightened up. Perhaps related, perhaps not, my kids aren't doing that well on the assessments we just gave them. That is, they really aren't doing that much better than they would at the beginning of the year, I don't think. Mitigating factors are perhaps the following:

(1) Their English still needs lots of work, and when it gets better, so will their math scores (since they'll actually understand all the problems);
(2) The subject I have taught in the most uniform fashion, English grammar, was their best subject on the assessment.

The biggest issue is that I still have such a range, and some of them are just so low that it's unbelievable. I thought the point of the bilingual program was that they would be phasing into English, and while a lot of them are, some of them are just not doing well. It's tough for me to teach anything in Spanish, too, since they are testing in English.

The other problem I think I have had this year is I have not asked enough questions or gotten enough help on my own. The approach my administration has generally had is "we are too busy to watch you" (not explicitly given, of course, but that's been the reality). This has been good insofar as I've escaped direct sanctioning for anything I've done or not done, but been very negative as far as offers for help are concerned. I'm making a concerted effort now to understand what resources I have and use them appropriately.

One thing I am doing to change my approach is moving to a more uniform, textbook reading format. I just don't think that I, or they, have the capability right now to extract large gains from independent reading. They'll still do it, particularly at home, but as for expecting that to be the bulk of their in-class reading as I have been trying for a few weeks, that is over.

There are more issues than that right now, of course, and everything is complicated, but that's about all the time I have right now.